The Siberian American: Real Talk: It’s About the Journey, Not the Destination

Friday, March 4, 2016

Real Talk: It’s About the Journey, Not the Destination

Lately, I have been feeling stuck. The medical journey is incredibly long, and sometimes it feels like there is no end in sight. I am constantly counting down to a milestone: Match Day, the end of medical school, moving to Chicago, the end of intern year, and eventually, the end of residency and fellowship.


There are days when I wish we were closer to the light at the end of the tunnel. It would be nice to know where we are living for longer than a few years and to have a little financial stability. Looking ahead gives me hope that never seeing my husband now will be worth it in the future.

That said, I don’t want life to start when we are 32. Intern year has been the hardest year of my life, but I will always treasure the memories of the adventures we had in Chicago on Christopher’s days off. Do I wish he was around to explore with me every weekend? Of course. Still, we try to make the most of our time together every chance we get. Honestly, we should be spending as little money as possible this year, but I know I will regret it if we don’t see as much of the city as we can.

We will be 32 in the blink of an eye, and our time in Chicago will be a distant memory. I remember thinking medical school would take forever, and here we are, already discussing plans for moving back to Texas. When we finally reach our destination, I want to look back on our medical journey and feel like we actually lived it…because a life is a terrible thing to waste.

Have you ever felt stuck in your life?